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#thoughts

Just another lonely night

without her.

I’m crying because her life is so much better after she left me. She lost a lot of weight, has a popular blog, has a bf about to become a doctor of some sorts.

As for me I’ve been single for over a year and a half. I’ve had a few dates but they went nowhere. And that’s where I’ve been going.

I’ve woken up to how our world works and I’m just disgusted. Full of disgust of the real power & order of the world which is wielded without regards to the ethical needs of ALL people.

I can only do what I can to help change the world. I feel helpless and trapped to do anything. And everywhere I go, I just see people so caught up in their lives. Having to do so many things, as quickly and efficiently as possible. People are all pushed along, rushed to live their lives so that their eyes move too fast to be able to get off the treadmill and look around at what’s going on.

One thing I’ve come to defeat is my fear of death. Fact: All men before me have done it, it’s gonna happen. I’ve learned to embrace impermanence. First step is eliminating desire for material things. Allll your shit is going to break or fade away in time due to wear n tear or loss of interest. This acceptance is a big step and was easy for me because I was never materialistic.

The only thing I want is love. Love for every soul. And maybe, if the universe feels I deserve it, the love of a woman. Someone that will love and accept the perks and flaws to my being. Who will fight with me though all the never ending pain that life dishes out.

I just don’t know what to do. Where I’m supposed to fit in with all of it. I’m so angry at the system of the world that I feel crippled and reluctant to get back on the treadmill. I feel like leaving home and being like Christopher McCandless and just live here and there and keep on moving from place to place.

If you read all of this, thank you

p.s. Stop saying fuck the world or fuck my life, and hating because it’s cool (don’t do anything because it’s cool). That’s rotten language that shouldn’t be occupying your thoughts. Your thoughts are more important than you know. They are the stem which grows into your actions and eventually your destiny.

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2 days ago

I believe that there will be a day where mankind will face their ultimate test. This test I’m referring to is the idea of microchip embodiment. This has already been introduced actually but not on a grand scale. I believe the real people in power in the world want this more than anything. They want this so they can control and decide whether to keep your chip on, so they can monitor you, or turn it off. They’d turn it off if you didn’t abide by their agenda in how the want the system of Earth to run. These people in power I promise you are not politicians, they are the ones with the most money that have been consumed by their greed to believe that they essentially run the world. They don’t entirely, but the deck is very much stacked in their favor. The only thing they don’t have is ultimate control over people. Mainstream media has already done a great disservice to the human mind in how we think and has manipulated us to buy into big corporations agendas. If they could implant microchips into humans they would, but I’m sure the people would object to this if it were so bluntly laid out. Media WILL promote this idea over and over and over till the idea of it is so normal that people will start to buy into it and then government will start doing trials with these chips on those that are willing to try them. Media then would show people with these chips and how much “better” their lives are with them. If the popularity of such a mechanism increases to point where the majority of the public approves of the use microchips we could start heading down the darkest dead end road of human history. If microchips become so popular within society that could eventually lead to government signing a bill into law requiring the implantation of microchips. Why would the public object when it’s become so popular? This day MUST NOT come. I may sound a little far out there but I promise you that the powers that be want control over you. This would be the ultimate control mechanism. They’d be able to monitor your every move to make sure you are cooperating with the system that which the world operates under. And if they’d see anyone straying away from the herd they would simply turn off their chip. All you have to do is nip this idea in the bud before it grows into a common thought and belief. When this idea emerges, dismiss it. Avoid talking about it, turn off your TV when they start talking about it. Do not let the idea occupy your mind. It must not become a popular idea in the world. Otherwise we will all become complete slaves to an elite group. I say complete because you and I are already slaves. So few realize this because they are rushed and hurried along to live their lives that they don’t have time to take time to look around at what is really going on. Best advice, start changing your attitude on humanity’s current situation in regards the world and it’s failing system. I’m sure we can all agree that the future does look bleak, economically, environmentally, socially, etc. but there IS always hope. It all starts with the individual’s mindset. You have the power to change your attitude. I say we are not fucked and that the world needs to change for the better, before it descends to change for the worse.

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